You Have My Attention

Thu, 27 Oct 2005 03:35:03 GMT

i cant HELP but to absolutely go insane about you. your the most beautiful magnificent thing that has ever happened to me or toggle my emotions because im such a brittle fragile creature and you absolutely ADORE everything about me

PRAISES PRAISES PRAISES PRAISES PRAISES TO YOU!!!!!! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!!!

i want my life and everything about me to explode about the unfailing insane rediculous love that you have cemented in the depths of the innermost parts of my soul all the way out of the physical vessel that i inhabit. thankyou SO SO MUCH for being my perfect absolute!!!!!!!!i scream out loud and dance for joy at how perfect this is!!!!!!!!!!!!

you have let me suffer through long long trials recently and tonight you delivered me from so much and so SO MANY things have happened that has brought you a great ammount of joy and cant help but freak out about how that doesnt touch the glory you deserve. I BEG that you will fill me up until i overflow and pour out your blessing upon everyone who curses you in thier hearts but only wants you at the same time. and the beauty of it all is that you allow me to live a life as if i was phsyically covered in dark red blood so people look at me like what on earth is this.

you might and justice reaches accross the galaxies and were so blind to it but thankyou we can see because of your son. i eagerly await the day when it is obvious to me and the fogged glass becomes clear. your apparent justice is amazing and your ability to love is so fast.

...i cant stop talking about it. your just so beautiful.

i love you

Fri, 21 Oct 2005 03:21:52 GMT

man theres such cool ways you work through people. i hate the stereotype of how people worship. through simple songs or prayers only. i love these things (worship with simple song and praying its a huge part of my life) dont get me wrong. but i hate it when people stop there.

what about painting? and not just painting and selling it like painting a picture of jesus. i mean actually during your time spent alone with God doing something like painting a 'thankyou' picture or something. i dunno i just think humans dont use the right side of thier brain enough. but man it rules that you love us despite how we DONT use the creative minds you give us, on top of being crooked. your just so perfect.

please dont let evil things badger me. your already bled for them i dont want to pay attention to it.

I Am. is just such a fitting name for you. sometimes i think you chose that for us to use when we just cant describe the millions of ways your everything our everything is not. beautiful

i want to be radically yours... but i need your help.

Tue, 11 Oct 2005 22:56:43 GMT

today was a long day, help me have healthy shame.
i went skateboarding today... and man you have such a pretty creation in the fall. speaking of fall i did alot of enjoying that part of myself today.. ugh. but praises to you for my spirit side of the amphibious part of me i can rejoice in my salvation amidst heartache. PLEASE help me not to think the thoughts that dont allow my constant worship. i do want to make myself talk to you when i dont feel led to (not that its in any way a burden) but i do want the passion.

man im excited about tomorrow night to be in your house. woooo.

Mon, 10 Oct 2005 22:57:53 GMT

you introduced me to new music last night that encouraged me just now. i one a battle in one of my toughest wars earlier. today was hard towards the end. my flesh is trying to pull me from what im trying to do, and thats praise you, but whats new?

"ENJOY SALVATION OF MY SOUL!"

theres times when my heart says to me, "your parents arent to be honored for this"
and praise be to you that i examine that. help me ignore it and honor the unhonorable.

Come quick, You Light that knows no evening...come, alone to the alone!
There are a thousand half-smiles well worth leaving for to take your madness home,
And You dance inside my chest where no one sees You,
But sometimes I see You.

(Come quick, You Light that knows no evening...come, alone to the alone.
There's a thousand half-loves well worth leaving for to take your madness home,
And You dance inside my chest, etcetera... etcetera ...ETCETERA!!)

Mon, 10 Oct 2005 01:01:38 GMT

lately ive been thinking about how your plan is alot like a conversation between my father and mother when im too young to understand words and sentances. like there (my father and mother when im a child) watching me from a distance while im running around in the yard. just talking about how crazy they are over me and how there so excited to raise me. i think theres so much more im going to understand about you when i father children.

last night was a blessing. it was fun and you did remind me to talk to you while i was playing... just liked i asked.

this week i want to think about you alot. not that i dont any other week. i just havent enough this weekend. please keep me from things that take you out of my thought patterns.

help me examine myself and your world. my soul is so excited when i dont do things that tear it up... thanks for keeping it sewn.

Sat, 08 Oct 2005 21:06:53 GMT

if you read this.... go to this tonight it shall rule!

man you bless me alot.. help me talk to you alot tonight im excited about what you do for me, it rules. im sorry i didnt have time alone with you yesterday, im looking forward to it tonight.

only 70 some odd years more

Fri, 07 Oct 2005 02:20:26 GMT

man. how i hate the suicidal tendencies my spirit has.
it frustrates me i have to wait for glory sometimes and im sorry. this is the day you've made. help me to dance over it.
im trying, and i love you

lately ive been quiet, and so has my house. its affected the music that i play at my desk. things are so different...
i love my grandmother to death. just watching her move about the house fills me with joy. i dont know why. i found her sleeping like a baby the other night and for some reason i see you in it all.

i want to keep in mind that gift, and talk to you directly without stopping

i could feel you nagging me today. thankyou

help me be a friend to her and help her know how much you love her, even though it looks like i dont care.

Fri, 07 Oct 2005 02:14:05 GMT

this is my new journal. im not going to talk to it like a livejournal. im going to talk to it like im either:
A. writing to God
B. writing to a book
C. writing to myself